“If only. Those must be the two saddest words in the world.”
Unknown source

“Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.”
Sydney Smith

I often wonder whether regret is good or bad. I think and many times find myself advising people that “whatever happens, happens for the best". But is that really true? Do things really improve? Do you eventually get
- What u want?
- Where u want to be?
- What u always thought u should be and do?
Well, I find myself thinking more and more these days that "no, u thought absolutely wrong"!! Well, some things that happen do happen for the best, but (n there is always a but) there is always, always a question which follows - what if that didn’t happen? What if things had been different? What if I had done this instead of what I did? Important questions which do not always have answers!!That’s the saddest part of it all. Maybe if answers were there for me to see, it would've been better. Am not saying I would have not regretted stuff, but maybe, just maybe things would've seemed a lil brighter!!!
I always had this wish list in my mind, which I didn’t dare put down in writing lest things don't come true! But thinking back I realize I haven't achieved/got even a third of it, that is got to be the lowest low...I have always worked hard, did what was needed along the way, but just those few decisions that went the wrong way has changed the course of my life. Is that the road my life was destined to take? That is one big monster question that I am scared even to contemplate! It’s just too huge! Don’t even want to go there!! But these days, I seem to be taking little baby steps into that world, and trying to think things through. I was hoping I will be able to get some answers but I don't think that’s happening yet, have a long way to go (miles to go...)I am still in the” why did it have to happen to me" stage.
I am hoping that the steps I take and the decisions I make in the future will be better and not ones I will regret to add to my cup of woes!! Hmm….. maybe that should be my new year goal/resolution(don’t add to the crap already happening in life, try to make it better and no more crappy(read wasteful) decisions, or maybe it should read, plainly and simply, that I need to take responsibility for my actions and face up to them)
Wow! That was a lot of venting out!!
Hey 2007!!!!Just the antidote I need!! I desperately hope so……

Most of the things we decide are not what we know to be the best. We say yes, merely because we are driven into a corner and must say something."
-Frank Crane

Whenever I make a bum decision, I go out and make another one.
-Harry S Truman